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 I would like to apologise in advance if this photo bothers or hurts anyone. That is not my intent.
Yes. This bird is in fact dead.
I was busy working on my computer earlier on yesterday morning when I heard a loud bang on the study window, in the back room. I instantly knew what it was because it has happened from time to time ever since I was young. A bird had flown into the window.
I got up and went to the study window, I looked down into the back garden, but couldn't see anything, so I went back to my room and carried on working. It was only about half an hour later, after I had decided to go out and take some photos in my back garden, that I saw the bird lying there. I went over to it and sat by it, staring at it. I must have sat for a good 10-12 minutes as about 4 million thoughts went through my head.
Here you have what I consider to be one of the worlds most magnificent and beautiful animals, the bird.
This particular bird was once busy, lively and flying around happily enjoying the sun and good weather. It seems such a waste of life; this bird's entire life and future existence reduced to flying into a window and tumbling 17 feet down, probably to an instant death.
This corpse represents the life existence and pain of an animal that's spent its entire life beating nature, beating its predators and as its heart beat that one last time, in a split second, it smashed into a window and fell over 17 feet to the ground.
I myself am going through some personal problems with my life at the moment which is probably why I thought so deeply about this.
Seeing that bird lying dead on the ground made me want to help others and make a difference.
What would normally happen to the bird is one of the family; probably my mum or dad, would put it into a plastic bag, and put it inthe trash.
I thought about this and thought, this animal deserves more than to just be thrown in the trash and completely forgotten. I mean, it's a bird... who cares? I care.
The rest of this birds family are probably completely unaware of its death and even if they were they couldn't burry it and give it a grave in the same way humans do. This really bothered me, so I found a quiet corner on the bank, across our stream, and in some shade, and dug a hole. I got some soft white paper and carefully wrapped the bird in it. I carried it over to the hole and placed it in with precision and delicacy so as not to disturb it too much. I then put the soil back over and placed a few small stones over the top. I will make a cross or some icon or symbol to put over as a memorial.
I bet this birds parents would have been proud. |
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Move onto the next stage... |
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Oh shit... we've already started A2 work at school.
Provided I stay on at school, I am going to find A2 a struggle.
I think when I'm old, dying and have nothing to do, I'll look back on who I was and try to rebirth... like a phoenix.
I might even look back on this comment and paradoxically implode, soon after which my shoes would hit the ground steaming. Then, somehow, magically I would burn up in flames... only to be reborn like a phoenix from my ashes. Unfortunately, my ashes were put in a wooden box and I'm stuck inside.. |
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"Do or do not. There is no try."
I am probably going to fail my A-Levels. I try hard, but that's never enough to get a respectable/ reasonable/ average/ acceptable/ satisfactory, grade... and thus I will fail. I have never really been academically smart and have struggled through school. I honestly, truly, sincerely, truthfully, frankly, openly, directly, candidly, really, do believe I am yet to find "the one thing" I am good at. Either that or I have already found it... but I am just not that good at it, but enjoy it. This would be web design/ programming.
I have so many questions about myself that I will probably never know the answers to.
What is wrong with me?
Is there anything wrong with me?
Why am I not motivated to study for exams, even after telling myself how important they are?
Where will I be in 7 years from now?
Why am I not good enough at any one subject to get a respectable mark?
You may think that from reading this I am one of "them negative ones" who Is always pessimistic and is never happy with his own work... is usually always modest about what he is capable of achieving and always plays complements down.
Wrong.
I have never been a negative person... not really. I have both understood and accepted I am not good at academic work and am not that great at the hobby's I both love and enjoy. But this has never made me doubt, I have always thought... "No, I am better than that", "I know I can achieve", "This requires work, but I am prepared". |
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I am always trying to improve this blog to make it a bit more interactive...
... well as you can see, I have changed the header and have also added a navigation bar, so look out for new pages emerging... they'll appear as links in the navigation bar. I will still stick to my regular, standard posting of life events and day-to-day experiences and activities but I've just added a little bit more, just to keep you interested and entertained.
Below is a list of current features I have on this blog. As I get time, I will add more. If you have a suggestion or bright idea, contact me =D
:: Current Features ::
Blog Archive
Subscriptions
Picture of the month
Quote bar
Guestbook
Navigation bar +
Music +
+ Means I added it today
-- Coming soon --
Quote of the day
Miscellaneous blog archive
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"don't it make you sad to know that life is more than who we are"
"letters that you never meant to send Get lost or thrown away" |
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Exams. Everyone panic! on three...
one... two...
THREE.
Ok we're all panicking!
I am going to fail my exams for a combination of 5 reasons... the 5 reasons that always guarantee failure.
1. I'm not Simon Lynch (Miko Hughes, from the 1998 film; Mercury Rising)
2. I suck at memorizing.
3. I get nervous because I suck at memorizing.
4. I'm too lazy to study and put crap up on this blog site instead, to kill time.
5. I'm not good at badminton.
I have used an accurate post-exam modelling program to predict and animate my status after I take the exam:
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